This week I leave the job I’ve had for 5 years. This week, I start a new one. This week I start a new school. I have four responsibilities to balance this week, on top of a painfully over-limit phone bill and school not dishing out the finan aid. Thank goodness I’m seeing Jimmy Eat World on Thursday.

This weekend was good. Spent a lot of time with family. And Candice, who is practically family. Her mom wants to see me over there more. Candice is an only child, so I’m their “second daughter”. Haha. I didn’t think that a big deal when my mom split for MN, but now it is. I read Calvin & Hobbes with my little brother and we laughed til our stomachs hurt. My little sister eats parmesan cheese straight out of the can and the first question she always asks me is “Are you staying over?” This weekend I told everyone Kiki is transferring to CSULB and thats where we’re living next year. Went to a show and for once, was relaxed. Ha. Watched lights, listened, got lost in thought.

Sometimes I’m such a loner (Dottie, a Rebel) I aim to be completely unattached. I don’t need anyone for anything. No phone calls, no texts, no IMs, no tag-alongs. I just need to get in the car, and go. Me and the road and the radio. Me, absorbing atmosphere.

It is important to have a place to go home to, though.

I guess I’ve stopped looking for home as a place, and just started looking for home in people.

Someday, I’ll get them all in one room.
And then I’ll curl up on the floor.
And go to sleep.
Peacefully.